From September, 2018

To all of the Friends I Lost During my Divorce

You notice how I didn’t put friends in quotation marks? That’s because I know that at one time, we were friends. Even great friends. I would host house parties and cook, and I would always try to make sure no one was left out. Believe me, I know I’m not the best host…or even the best friend for that matter. I have SO MANY imperfections…just like the rest of humanity. And I know at times I was a difficult person to be around, due to my head strong, opinionated, and sometimes selfish personality that can be easily perceived as bitchiness.…

The Big 3

I had a “normal” life. I had a house, a yard, and became a wife. The year 2017 started off as any, but there were many issues I had to fall from, from the year before. No one’s life gets to start over because it’s a new year, right? My marriage was broken, like an unspoken agreement of hate that even spewed through our smiles when we tried. My plans with my other true lover masked the insecurities of never being alone. And then my other lover was taken from me at the hands of his motorcycle that made him…

Dream Team

The puzzle it lingers I like the feeling of it, slipping through my fingers Letting go, feel the flow, take it slow, and there’s your breath on my shoulder. We’re getting older, our ways of seeing, believing, relieving, to pave for a hopeful smile. With it comes the anxiety, that futuristic enemy that’s blinding. Suffocating. We know better now though because we know the truth. It’s in the proof of the light that spills in when we hate it. At times, misery loves company. and It’s easy to forget the survival game. We’re not the same but I can benefit…

Sun, Stars and Scars

When everyone wants you, but not really They don’t see me. I see that they don’t see the mystery, but it’s worth solving. What do you want out of this? To sit there and act like the world doesn’t exist? Is it all too much? Does the truth set you free, or does it trap you in time, in a constant misery? Be smart. Plan ahead. Protect your heart In fear of everything coming apart… And you still don’t get it. I am the sun. I am the stars and the scars I carry with me. I am You. I…